12/18/05
I handled a particularly wild 1-year-old's party today. Stayed calm and drew well
through the squirming chaos.
Early gig, I went to the gym when the party was over.
What an exhiliarating surprise I had! I planned on doing the same proscribed
acceptible routine that lots of people do at this gym (exercise bike with headphones),
but
I passed by the large empty room that's used for classes. I've been a member
here for many years, but I never before used the room on my own. Seemed
that the only people who did that were 'involved' people, doing stuff like
performance-routines or real advanced muscle-focus. Today I stepped inside.
To do my own thing.
It was great. The room was empty.
It's open even though the door closed
behind me. People upstairs could look down on the room from a
balcony. The ceiling, which I'd looked at thousands of times in classes,
is almost 3 stories high. Seemed vast when I was alone. There I was.
Alone in the center of the room. With two walls of mirrors and an easy to read
clock on another wall.
First, I practiced some dance moves. The 6-step
looked okay. I practiced a coordination side-step thing.
Tried an Optical Illusion from the old Charleston, and it still worked.
Could not remember the C-C. And I soon stopped the break-dancing for
Yoga healing. In that vast room. Me. Doing my thing in a Public Place. I did:
tapping,
shaking,
breathing/focus,
toe-tapping
intestine exercise,
breathing/focus,
and then I was amazed.
As I sat up, I glanced in the mirror.
I never saw myself looking like that before.
RADIATING ABSOLUTE BEAUTY.
I was glowing.
People try to put on makeup to look like I looked after thIS Yoga session.
My eyes were glowing. My lips were darker. There was a calmness about me reminiscent
of my cat's death a few years ago. My hair, a little wild, but still looking right -
Like a magazine Breck advertisement. I was transported.
Beauty is not something to manipulate. To fake. To make it happen with clothes
and makeup and beautiful THINGS. That's just showing that those other things are beautiful.
Real human beauty happens when a person...
I was so surprised. Never saw anything like that on ME before.
And while I'm writing here, I guess I'll upload a new drawing.
It's just an extra kid-picture that I drew while waiting for dinner.
I was remembering a cute little girl from today's party who wore pink glasses.
And in this picture that I did on my own time,
I put her into a cute dress/pose that I saw on a different girl at today's party. Those little kids were
so cute.

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